Yes - it's up to me to figure out just what it is I have to do, and then to do it. I've never had a problem discovering or inventing projects. But for a while, this past year, projects didn't present themselves and I found it more difficult to invent them.
Now I'm in deep in rehearsals for the hardest role of my life. I doing something. Something big.
And it feels good. My mind feels good. My body feels good. I laugh more. I dream more. I eat less. I'm hiking my trails more miles as I memorize my lines, hour after hour after hour.
Willy Loman dies. When he can't be a salesman any longer, he simply dies.
That's not my story. Never will be.